"Tell her why. At least give her the chance to have feelings about it. For god’s sake!” – Meredith Grey, Grey’s Anatomy Season 2 Episode 2 Sabi dito ENTJ daw personality ko. Sabi rin "ENTJs desire closure in their lives, wanting to make conclusions about things or people quickly." AWOW! I'm not one to easily believe these online quizzes and tests but I have consistently gotten an ENTJ result the past few years. (I used to be ENFP.) Anyway, the point is... apparently, I need closure. Personality test and diagnosis aside, yes, I am that person. It took me almost five years to get over my first love. And he wasn't even my boyfriend. We just had an on and off thing. I moved on because I got the closure I wanted. We didn't really part ways. Rather, he got himself a girlfriend. And yes, brave old me was calm and collected. I maintained my friendship with the guy. And his girlfriend. HUWOW! That started a pattern in all my relationships which I terribly regret now. So how did I get the closure I wanted? I asked for it. Some four or five years after he got himself a girlfriend,…
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I Try
I used to really love Macy Gray's I Try, though I couldn't relate to what the song is saying. But now I do and I love the song more than ever. The song captures so perfectly how I have been living my life the past few months. It's about trying to move on and forget a past love. Sing it with me all yeah broken-hearted friends... "I try to say goodbye and I choke, Try to walk away and I stumble." My absolute favorite is the part that goes: I may appear to be free But I'm just a prisoner of your love And I may seem all right and smile when you leave But my smiles are just a front Just a front, hey I play it off, but I'm dreaming of you And I'll try to keep my cool, but I'm feenin' I try to say goodbye and I choke Try to walk away and I stumble Though I try to hide it, it's clear My world crumbles when you are not here Goodbye and I choke I try to walk away and I stumble Though I try to hide it, it's clear My world crumbles when you…
A Close Encounter with the Ex
Last Sunday, the most important tournament in my poker life was going to take place. Imagine working hard for and anticipating a tournament for three months. It was supposed to be intense and stressful. Surprisingly, I was calm and relaxed. Until... I saw my ex walk in. GAAAAH! Let's call him ex-R. We have had an agreement that he would try to inform me everytime he would go someplace I would probably be in and I would do the same. Needless to say, his early evening visit to the poker club came without a warning. He only visited the poker club on early evenings when we dated. More surprisingly, his gf was not with him. GAAAAH! WHY?! WHY?! WHY?! So I became distracted and as poker players would say, I was on tilt. We are friends, my ex and I. In fact, we would sometimes send SMS to each other to ask or consult about work-related stuff. But, I was caught off-guard. And yes, I was shocked by how much I was affected by his presence. You know what was even more disturbing? He was seated and played beside another guy I dated whom we shall refer to as ex-A.…