...for now. We talked things over, and we decided it's going to be a rough ride. But we're both willing to weather this storm. I just hope we continue to grow and learn from this experience. Otherwise, it will be all for naught.
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Confused
I don't know what to do, what to say, what to think, what to feel anymore. Pros and cons, positives and negatives, what ifs, consequences, repercussions, anxieties, and fears all crowd my mind right now. There are times, moments when things seem easy, when deciding and choosing is possible. But there are times when all becomes hazy again. Why does it have to be so hard? In paper, what I have to do seems clear and easy to pick. But the reality is... it's not. It's not as easy as it seems, not as simple as I want it to be. I keep on hoping that maybe soon enough all will be clear, that suddenly, I will decide... we will decide and stand by it no matter what, for the sake of ourselves. But that does not seem to be in the horizon. For now, everything is up in the air. Now I know what "It's complicated" truly means and it's not a good thing. It's as if our lives, what we have, our feelings are in a limbo. One wrong step and everything will fall and break. And one correct move will make everything better. It takes just one…
Lessons I Learned Today
Here are some things I realized throughout this day... 1.) Be patient. 2.) Don't not be quick to say things when you are angry. You might regret it. 3.) Trust. 4.) When feeling intense emotions, take a deep breath, work, immerse yourself in productive things rather than wallow in anger or pain. 5.) Let go of things that only add to your stress especially if these things do not contribute to your personal growth. 6.) Smile. Laugh. There's always something to be happy about. 7.) Be thankful. There is always something to be thankful for.
It's A Choice
A lot of people haven't been very enthusiastic over my long distance relationship with a guy I barely know. If I were in their position, I'd be worried and pessimistic too. True, there are moments when I think things through and realize that this relationship does not make a lot of sense. How can I, eternal critic of all things and everybody that can be criticized, be in a relationship with somebody who is not at all my type of guy... in a kind of relationship that is something I used to frown on. I must admit, there are moments when breaking up seems to be the better, saner option. And it is. But for now, I choose this. I choose to be in the relationship because despite everything, I have matured because of it. I have learned things about myself and about loving that I didn't know before. Falling in love is not a choice, it's a feeling we can't avoid or force ourselves into. I have felt it before and it has done me no good. This time around I didn't fall in love. I chose to love. He might not be the perfect guy, might not be…
Happy One Month!
Early this morning, the boyfriend and I were trying to figure out when we will be celebrating our 1 month-sary thing. I do not remember when I actually agreed to be his gf, only that it was a Saturday. And we figured out that it must have been the last Saturday of September. Hmm... When we finished talking on the phone, I looked at my phone's calendar and realized... Today is the day. Haha! So Happy One Month to you even if you don't read my blog. :P Thanks for the memories!
I Got Tired
I'm still happy with the boyfriend but I wasn't happy with who I was becoming. For two days I acted like the crazy, jealous, possessive, paranoid girlfriend. And it was not a pretty sight. And it was tiring. Good thing I realized it before it's too late. Buti na lang the boyfriend is understanding. He got pissed off but did match my ire. AHAHA! Good dog my boyfriend is. I am now back to being me... happy, trusting, and understanding. Kanya-kanyang buhay kami pero still together.