I used to really love Macy Gray's I Try, though I couldn't relate to what the song is saying. But now I do and I love the song more than ever. The song captures so perfectly how I have been living my life the past few months. It's about trying to move on and forget a past love. Sing it with me all yeah broken-hearted friends... "I try to say goodbye and I choke, Try to walk away and I stumble." My absolute favorite is the part that goes: I may appear to be free But I'm just a prisoner of your love And I may seem all right and smile when you leave But my smiles are just a front Just a front, hey I play it off, but I'm dreaming of you And I'll try to keep my cool, but I'm feenin' I try to say goodbye and I choke Try to walk away and I stumble Though I try to hide it, it's clear My world crumbles when you are not here Goodbye and I choke I try to walk away and I stumble Though I try to hide it, it's clear My world crumbles when you…
Tag: breaking up
One More Chance
Needless to say, Madam Ria is feeling emo today. And I want to celebrate the emo-ness with some scenes, lines, and analysis of Star Cinema's epic 2007 movie, One More Chance featuring John Lloyd Cruz and Bea Alonzo. Contrary to what industry insiders might think, it was not just the magic of the Bea and John Lloyd tandem that brought in the crowds. It might have been what brought the crowd during the first two weeks of the film's cinema run, but it was the film's story and lines that made the viewers cry, come back to cry some more, quote the movie, and revere it solemnly. video courtesy of hankin16. Rights belong to Star Cinema. No copyright infringement intended. Scene 1 Popoy (John Lloyd) and Basha (Bea) see each other after a while after their break up. Popoy already has a new girlfriend, Tricia (Maja Salvador). Basha: Sana kaya ko lang tiisin ang sakit na nararamdaman ko. Kasi ako naman humiling nito diba? Ako yung may gusto. Sana kaya ko rin sabihin na masaya ako para sayo, para sa inyo. Sana kaya ko. Sana kaya ko. Pero hindi eh. Ang sama-sama kong tao. Kasi ang totoo umaasa pa rin…
Save Yourself
This is an open letter... to myself. Dear Ms Jose, I know you still love him. (unsure) And we know you shouldn't. Stop yourself. While you are smart enough to know he's never going to choose you and that he's not coming back to you, we know there's a part of you still hoping. Stop. Your pride is hurt. In every possible way, you should have been the one as he was your one. But you are not his one. You might never be. If only we didn't love Math, we'd say it's impossible that he's ever coming back. But Mathematically speaking, the only thing we are certain about is that nothing else is certain. ANYWAY, yes, you were and still is the better girl... more beautiful, smarter, and you treated him better than he deserved. And yes you loved him. Sincerely. Selflessly. Whole-heartedly. And you were stupid. But you must let go. Yes, you have moved on. At least, you are trying to. But have not let go. You are still hanging to that very small flicker of hope. Save yourself the trouble. He is not coming back. He is not going to mend your broken heart. He will…
The Pain of Breaking Up
It's inevitable. Every break up is painful. No matter how many bad fights you've had, no matter how long a time you've been actually been waiting for it to happen, it still stings. I think most of the time, it's not the being left alone, being left behind that hurts. It's the doubts, the unanswered questions, the asking when the lies must have started, when did the love fade, when did it start slipping away, and the loss of the confidence that cause greater pain. It's the unanswered question of "what the f*ck went wrong when I thought everything was going well" that makes us cry. Nobody (in his right mind) enters a relationship with the foresight or the expectation that it will crumble or end somehow. One enters a relationship with the expectation, the idea that it will be develop into a deeper one, it will last long, somehow. So when it happens, when what you fear finally arrives, when it ends, you start questioning yourself, the other person, the relationship, and everything that happened. Was the love even real? Were the happy moments really happy? You question yourself. You ask if there's anything wrong with yourself, could you…