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Closure

“Tell her why. At least give her the chance to have feelings about it. For god’s sake!”

– Meredith Grey, Grey’s Anatomy Season 2 Episode 2

Sabi dito ENTJ daw personality ko. Sabi rin “ENTJs desire closure in their lives, wanting to make conclusions about things or people quickly.” AWOW! I’m not one to easily believe these online quizzes and tests but I have consistently gotten an ENTJ result the past few years. (I used to be ENFP.)

Anyway, the point is… apparently, I need closure. Personality test and diagnosis aside, yes, I am that person. It took me almost five years to get over my first love. And he wasn’t even my boyfriend. We just had an on and off thing. I moved on because I got the closure I wanted. We didn’t really part ways. Rather, he got himself a girlfriend. And yes, brave old me was calm and collected. I maintained my friendship with the guy. And his girlfriend. HUWOW! That started a pattern in all my relationships which I terribly regret now.

So how did I get the closure I wanted? I asked for it. Some four or five years after he got himself a girlfriend, we met up for dinner. And I asked all the questions I wanted to ask and got the answers I had to hear. And there you go, I was finally over him. More recently, I have had the same experience. Even if it was clear for a long time that me and this ex were never ever gonna be together, I was not able to move on. Not necessarily because I still wanted to be with him, I just really needed him to apologize, to tell me his reasons, to give answers that I think I deserve. And there you go, I am finally ok and we can finally be truly friends.

But this does not happen often. People leave without so much as a good bye. At eto ako… basang-basa sa ulan, walang masisilungan, walang malalapitan. Wait… well, it seems a bit that way. When somebody chooses somebody else or leaves me, or just cuts off ties for whatever reason, I seem like a lost child. Like I don’t know what to do and where to go. Iniwan sa ere. Ain’t such a great feeling. And FML! It happens to me all the time.

Piolo (and I) deserve an explanation.
Piolo (and I) deserve an explanation.

Eto na naman ako… paulit-ulit na lang. Sabi nga sa kanta nila Piolo at Sarah G (totally different movie, BTW), “Paano ba ang magmahal? Palagi bang nasasaktan? Umiiyak na lang palagi, Gusto ko nang lumisan.” Sakit beh. Minsan (and most recently), di pa nga ako nagmahal, like pa nga lang… thumbs up pa nga lang, di pa napusuan, nasaktan na. OUCH! Sakit, beh.

Once again, I am like a lost child. Pero eto ang maganda, with the help of my friends, nagka-epiphany ako. YES! After 34 years of existence and 21 years of liking, loving, investing emotions, and ending up heartbroken and lost, ETO NA BEH! Natuto rin ang puso kong tanga.
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Podcast 6: Being Friends with the Ex

This is the podcast where I bash all my exes. NOT! Are you friends with your ex? I am. Find out how I manage to be friends with the cause of the biggest heartbreaks in my life.

I talk about being friends, how to be friends, and other subtopics that were asked or suggested by different people.

This is my longest and most stressful podcast yet. I wasn’t stressed out by the topic but by the editing I had to do. LOL!

Listen as I talk about being friends with my exes and how you can maybe also be friends with yours…


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Podcast 5: Why Geeks Make Good Lovers

Single Geeks
Single Geeks

Since high school, I have already been surrounded by geeks. Went to a geeky high school. Took up a geeky course in college. Now working with geeky people in a very geeky industry.

I do find geeks attractive. Even as a kid, I wanted to meet and date a guy with an IQ higher than mine. And I find smart guys fascinating, engaging, and interesting. I recently blogged that I am attracted to lawyers and engineers because I find them to be smart and geeky enough for me.

But what exactly makes geeks good lovers? Do other people also find them attractive? I turned to two blog posts from Awkward Things I Say to Girls and from Wired by Regina Lynn as references to discuss why geeks would make good lovers.

(The audio at the start of the podcast is weird for I don’t know what reason but it gets better at around 3:00. Apologies.)

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You may download at this LINK.

The topic is courtesy of my high school batchmate, Mae Cabahug, MD with input from a Plurk friend.

I hope you found it as interesting as I did. It’s a bit longer than my past podcasts though.

Reactions, suggestions, and other feedback are most welcome.