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Move On Mo Mukha Mo!

Sinasabi mong wala kang pakialam kasi di ka naman direktang apektado ng Martial Law. Eh kung gayon, tongenuh! Bakit ka pa nag-effort magpost tungkol doon? Wag kang papansin. Kung talagang wala kang pakialam, tahimik na lang.

Sinasabi mong move on na kami. Eh ikaw nga nangingialam ka sa di namin pag move on, kami pa kaya na nawalan ng magulang? Tongenuh mo!

Sinasabi mong magpatawad na kami. Paano magpapatawad ang taong di hiningan ng tawad? Paano magpapatawad kung patuloy na dine-deny ng mga may sala ang kanilang mga krimen? Paano magpapatawad kung maraming nagsasabing hindi totoo at hindi lehitimo ang sakit na nararamdaman namin? Tongenuh mo!

Sinasabi mong legal ang nangyari. Eh tongenuh! Paano na yung pag-aresto, pambubugbog, pagkawala, at pagkamatay ng libo-libong Pilipino, ano na?! Legal ba yun?! Tongenuh! Move on kami doon pero kayo di kayo matahimik kasi ayaw namin ipalibing ang isang kriminal?! Move on kami kahit na pinatay ang mahal naminsa buhay pero kayo di kayo makapag move on dahil di malibing ang isang kriminal? PAKYU PO!!! PAYASO AMPOTAH!!!

Sinasabi mong marami siyang nagawang tama at mabuti. Eh tongenuh mo! Dahil ba nakagawa ng mabuti peke na lahat ng pagnanakaw, pagkitil sa demokrasya, pagpatay, at panggago sa sambayanang Pilipino?!

Sinasabi mong kasalanan to ng ibang tao dahil nanggago rin sila. Tongenuh!!! Pag ikaw binugbog, magiging ok lang ba sayo yun dahil ang ibang tao may binugbog din na ibang tao? Kagaguhan!!! Hindi dahil may nagawang mali ang ibang tao eh ok na yung may libo-libong Pilipino ang inaresto, binugbog, at pinatay?

BAGO NIYO KAMING SABIHAN NA MOVE ON NA KAMI, BIGYAN NIYO KAMI NG HUSTISYA! IBALIK NIYO ANG KABATAAN KO! IBALIK NIYO ANG KALAYAAN NG MGA MAGULANG KO! IBALIK NIYO ANG BUHAY NG LIBO-LIBONG PILIPINONG NAMATAY. BAWIIN NIYO ANG SAKIT NA NARAMDAMAN NG LIBO-LIBONG PILIPINONG BINUGBOG! IBALIK NIYO ANG BILYONG PISO NA NANAKAW SA MAMAMAYANG PILIPINO! IPAKITA NIYO ANG LIBO-LIBONG DESEPARACIDOS! ANO NA?! Emote na emote kayo kasi di mailibing ang isang mandarambong pero kami bawal kami magalit at humingi ng hustisya. PAKYU PO!

Give us back our innocence. Give us back a childhood free of fear. Give me back a healthy, whole family. Give me back my father. Give me back everything I lost and never had. Kaya niyo bang ibigay sa akin yun? Kaya niyo bang ibigay yan sa libo-libong Pilipinong naging biktima ng Martial Law, sa kanilang mga anak at mga kamag-anak?

Hanggang hindi namin nakakamit ang hustisya, hanggang may mga taong patuloy na di inaamin ang katotohanan tungkol sa Martial Law, walang sino mang makakapagsabi na move on na kami. Dahil tongenuh niyo… kung hindi ipinaglaban ng mga bayani at martir ng Martial Law ang ating kalayaan, tayong lahat walang karapatang ihayag ang kahit na anong gusto nating ihayag. Kung hindi sila nagsakripisyo, we will all continue to live in fear and squalor.

Di kita pinipigilang magpakamangmang, tanga, bulag, at bobo. Kaya tongenuh, WAG MO RIN AKONG PIGILAN AT PAKIALAMAN NA MAGALIT, HUMINGI NG HUSTISYA, AT IPAHAYAG ANG AKING NARARAMDAMAN!

Tongenuh mo. Pakyu. Wala akong pakialam kung gusto mong maniwala sa mga gusto mong paniwalaan. Truth is whether you believe it or not, THOUSANDS OF FILIPINOS suffered under Martial Law and you have no effin right to tell us we have no right to be hurt or angry.

Hindi kita pinipigilan sa pagiging tanga, bobo, at insensitive mo. Choice mo maging ganyan. Ako choice kong ipaglaban ang mga ipinaglaban ng mga magulang ko. Choice ko maghanap ng hustisya. Choice kong ipaglaban ang katotohanan. Choice ko na patuloy ipaglaban ang demokrasiya para sa akin, para sa bawat Pilipino… pati na rin para sayo na patuloy na nagpo-post at nakikipaglaban para sa mga maling bagay.

Binuwis ng Papa ko at ng libo-libong Pilipino ang buhay nila para malaya mong paniwalaan ang kahit na anong potang inang katangahan ang gusto mong paniwalan at ipaglaban. Kaya WAG MO AKONG PAKIALAMAN KUNG DI AKO MAKAPAG-MOVE ON AT PATULOY KONG IPINAGLALABAN ANG KARAPATAN MONG MAGING MALAYA.

DON’T ME!!!

Photography by Eight Espino, Hair and Make Up by Envy Me Salon

My 29th Year Part Deux

Photography by Eight Espino, Hair and Make Up by Envy Me Salon
The Diyosa Lives

Despite the illness, the challenges of my house arrest, and the extra safety and health precautions I have to take, I am very grateful to be alive. There was a change in me. and people noticed. I gained a ton of weight, around 20 lbs. And then there was less drinking, less night outs, less stress, and less work.

While I was sick, I had to skip a lot of events and was given less workload. While resting, I pondered on a lot of things like love and relationships, forgiveness, letting go and moving on, and many other things about life and dealing with its challenges. This was when I accepted that I couldn’t control a lot of things in my life and I accepted it, not quite wholeheartedly, but there was acceptance.

I realized that there was really nothing else I’d like to do more than to write. And I told myself I was going to be ok as long as I can write and share my crazy thoughts to the world.

Filipino A list bloggers
Diyosa and the A listers

I was allowed to go to Metro Manila with the Avatar Media Team for WordCamp Philippines 2010. I delivered the opening remarks to the event and was very happy with how the event happened. While I was there, I also got to enjoy the company of my old and new blogger friends. It was a very refreshing and enjoyable, albeit a bit stressful, trip.

In October 2010, my cousin finally married his girlfriend of almost 13 years. Amaaaazing!

Best Food and Beverage Blog for Mindanao 2010

And later that month, I got happy news as well. After around 6 years of blogging and countless nominations, I finally won my first my Philippine Blog Awards trophy. I got the trophy for Best Food and Beverage Blog for Mindanao.

In November, I went to General Santos for a relaxing vacation. And I was well taken care of by my good friends Orman, Avel, and Donna, as well as my other blogger friends in Gen San.

Visayas Blogging Summit 2010
With Other Speakers at the Visayas Blogging Summit 2010

I also traveled to Iloilo to participate in the Visayas Blogging Summit 2010. I delivered a talk on the Role of Bloggers as New Media. I’d like to think it was a good talk since I got a lot of positive responses even after the talk.

In December, I delivered the State of the Philippine Blogosphere to open the first BlogFest Soccsksargen in General Santos City. On the same event, I was asked to deliver an acceptance speech for my Top 10 Emerging Influential Award and my PBA Mindanao 2010 Award. It was a very humbling experience which made me cry. It had been a very challenging year and it was great to finally get an award after 6 years of earnest blogging.

Winston Almendras accepting the award for RiaJose.com
Winston Almendras accepting the award for RiaJose.com

And the awards didn’t stop there. I got another award from the PBA for the Top Three Video Posts and Podcasts for 2010. My friend Winston received the award for me, and I only recently got the trophy. The award is for my podcast on Beings Friends with the Ex.

I had the privilege of judging the entries to the 6th Mindanao Filmfest along with NCCA’s Teddy Co and filmmaker/writer/music enthusiast/photographer Rudolph Alama. It was a very challenging experience but also a memorable one because I was able to experience first hand the talents of local fimmakers.

I got to spend Christmas with my relatives, and it was extra special because I got the chance to re-connect with a cousin I haven’t seen in quite a long time. And we even went out of town and cooked, drank, and player board games like we used to when we were younger.

New Year's Eve with the Joses

New Year’s Eve was spent with my paternal relatives which I haven’t done in a while. Everybody went home before 12 midnight because Daddy’s has a “palihi” belief thing. He believes that what you do when the stroke of midnight strikes on New Year would be what you will be doing the rest of the year. LOL!

On New Year’s Day, I prepared and cooked grilled liempo and puttanesca for some Davao and Gen San blogger friends. It was a fun bonding moment for all. Happy times! 🙂

Life became more hectic as 2011 rolled by.

I watched my cousin Mark and his band Baby Boomers go through the arduous process of auditioning for Pilipinas Got Talent 2. They got 3 yeses but somehow they didn’t make it to Manila.

I also got to speak to more than 500 Grade 6 students of Ateneo de Davao during their IT Day. I talked about being responsible on the web, specifically how to use social networking accounts properly and effectively. It was one of my most scary speaking experiences since I could not remember or think of ways to relate to 12 year olds. But apparently, I was an effective speaker according to the teachers and the kids themselves.

We <3 Crepelato Billboard
Lookie!

2011 was also memorable because I finally got to fulfill one of my dreams, to be in a billboard. HAHAHAHAHA! It was a proud moment for me to be invited as a blogger to endorse a product and be on its billboard. It’s not my only endorsement deal but it is the most publicized one. BONGGA! Many thanks to Crepelato for the experience and to Hairs and Nails Salon for making sure I look good in the bilboard!!!

In January, I travelled briefly to Gen San to attend the grand birthday celebration of Avel. It was a short but enjoyable trip. I travelled to Gen San again in February to judge the Lakan at Lakambini ng Gen San 2011 Pageant. I also joined the SEx Tour 2 or the Soccsksargen Experience Tour Part 2 where I got to go around Region XI while bonding with bloggers from all over the Philippines.

Busy, busy with JCI Davaoeña Daba Daba

I thought I needed change and a new challenge in 2011, I asked my cousin to recruit me to JCI. Coincidentally, a friend whom I bumped into during a party, invited me to join JCI Davaoeña Daba Daba. So I joined the organization in February and got inducted in March. It has been a flurry of activities, events, and projects since then.

The year has always been very kind to me as professional opportunities came knocking. And some opportunities continue on to knock on my door and there are some I pursue like crazy.

As 2010 came to a close, I wrote a letter to my future boyfriend. And when 2011 came, I wrote a letter to my ex.

While I celebrate the New Year, I consider my birthday as the day I begin making resolutions as it is the start of a new year in my life. And as it approached, a lot of great things happened to my career and to my personal life.

Two days before my birthday, I met somebody special. More about that soon. 😉

Happy 29th Birthday!

I celebrated my birthday multiple times this year. With the people in my organization. With my relatives. With my friends. With the special children of the DS Foundation. And of course, with the special person I met.

This post is around 3 months delayed and I even considered not posting this at all. I never really got the time, energy, or inspiration to finish writing about the second half of my 29th year. But here it is… a summary of how the past year was and how great my life is as I live through my 30th year.

Yes, I’m going to be 30 on April 28, 2012. Nine months left and I know it’s gonna be awesome thanks to all the wonderful people around me!

LIVE. LOVE. LEARN. <3 Part 1 posted more than 2 months ago

Because I Have to Say These

It has been a rough few months and a brutal year. On the other hand, it has been a challenging and fulfilling one career-wise. With my recent life-threatening illness, I felt that life has not yet gotten tired of giving me more shiz to be emo and angry about. Then again, after more than a month of struggling, I am happy and very grateful to be alive. And yes, I have gotten a bit mellow and is more accepting of how things are. I can easily let go of things now. Despite the challenges and hurdles, I was perfectly happy.

That is until last weekend. It was off to a good start until certain things were said. And yes, those might have been in jest, but it’s never a happy moment when somebody tells you that your dead father, the one you never really knew, was a very good and kind person and they wonder why you’re not a good and kind person. HARSH!
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