I began the new year with this status message on my Facebook: Happy New Year! May 2010 be kinder, more fruitful, and more productive for all those who deserve it. A toast to beauty, truth, happiness, peace, and love! May we all get what we deserve. ♥ But here's how I really spent the last days of 2009 and first days of 2010... I was frantically busy in the kitchen cooking and baking stuff for my family and friends, most challenging of which was preparing the Noche Buena for the Abellas. Main dish was steak, served with a cheese platter, sashimi, mashed potatoes, gravy, and blue cheese sauce. I also prepared my famous beef stew and tiramisu for the Joses. And the pastry kitchen? I spent hell in it for four days... brownies, cheesecakes, chocolate cakes, OH MY! I also spent a lot of time with my classmates. Both my high school and grade school batchmates had 10 year shindig things. I was able to attend my grade school batchmates' party. I was able to re-connect with a lot of old friends. Had a fun time reminiscing. But I missed our HS batch's grand thing at Eden. I was too…
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Being Happy
Had a cathartic talk with a dear friend today. It made me realize that I live a pretty sad life with too many struggles going on right now. I am actually struggling not to fall into depression again. But I have somehow managed to stay happy, smile, and somehow not cry myself to sleep every night. Maybe I have finally grown up, learned how to roll with the punches, let go of the pain, and look at the happy and funny side of life. Sometimes, I do get to hear my thoughts and feel the pain in my heart, I wonder and think of the what ifs, and the maybes. But I always sleep and wake up sane and without much thoughts of sadness and anger. As my friend affirmed, happiness is a state of mind. And right now, despite the pains and struggles, the haters and the critics, I choose to smile, to be happy, to keep myself sane. I look at my life, my work, the people I work with and have fun with, and see that somehow, I have helped them smile too. And right now, that is more than enough to keep me going. ;)
Never Been This Un-Emo
Yes, yes, yes... life has been good lately. Despite the unexpected kinks, and several minor problems I am facing (or choosing to ignore) right now, I have never been this un-emo. This blog, as with most of my other personal blogs, started out of angst and thrived on my many whines, rants, and anger towards people and my life. But lookie... I am smiling right now. I don't have a family (not in the way many people have), and I don't even have a boyfriend. But am I am moving on with a great big smile on my face. As I have shown in my Nokia video (of FAIL coz it was so shaky people got dizzy every time they'd watch it), I have so many things going on in my life right now, that I do not have much time to be angry or sad anymore. Which is also prolly why I don't have much reason to blog here anymore. Life is still full of sorrow and pains and yes, HATRED! But what the hell, I got my work, I got my friends, I got my relatives, I have my life to live. So screw the haters and flamers…
I Just Want to be Happy
I was never a big fan of Sex and the City, (I'd rather not elaborate. :P) but I did watch the TV show, and of course I had to watch the movie. The movie was funny and better than expected. But the editing was... weird! I suspect they censored it a bit to get a R-13 rating. But this post is not really about the movie... While watching the movie, I realized, I don't need anything. I just want to be happy. I don't need a man, a husband, children, success, fame, and wealth... I just want to be happy. I smile a lot, laugh (boisterously) a lot, but I don't think I've ever been truly happy. I'm a big mess and my life is an even bigger one. Sure there have been times when I felt elated, happy at a thought, at a nice compliment, excited by an event or situation. Lately, I've been having more success, recognition, and reasons to smile than I ever expected. But when I go home, I am lonely, a part of me is missing. I rarely cry nowadays. My life has been worse and I think I have been through the worst I…
Happy
Despite problems, people who try to bring me down, bouts of depression (not clinical), illnesses and stress, I am happy. Things are starting to fall into place. Loose ends are being tied up. Best of all, I am moving on. Every now and then. I can still feel the pain, I still get angry, and my bitterness remain... but I am able to live with it, determined to be better, be content, be HAPPY. Some things might not change, some people might never change. Some situations and issues will never be resolved. They never will, and I won't even expect them to. There is a certain peace achieved when one learns to just accept things as they are, no matter how wrong or unfair they are. One can be happy despite life and its pitfalls. All it takes is courage. Courage to decide to be happy, to choose to move on. It takes courage because not everybody can easily do it. I, for one, took a lot of time and encouragement from other people so that I could accept the way things are and move on. It's hard to be a good person, harder to be the better and bigger…