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Closure

“Tell her why. At least give her the chance to have feelings about it. For god’s sake!”

– Meredith Grey, Grey’s Anatomy Season 2 Episode 2

Sabi dito ENTJ daw personality ko. Sabi rin “ENTJs desire closure in their lives, wanting to make conclusions about things or people quickly.” AWOW! I’m not one to easily believe these online quizzes and tests but I have consistently gotten an ENTJ result the past few years. (I used to be ENFP.)

Anyway, the point is… apparently, I need closure. Personality test and diagnosis aside, yes, I am that person. It took me almost five years to get over my first love. And he wasn’t even my boyfriend. We just had an on and off thing. I moved on because I got the closure I wanted. We didn’t really part ways. Rather, he got himself a girlfriend. And yes, brave old me was calm and collected. I maintained my friendship with the guy. And his girlfriend. HUWOW! That started a pattern in all my relationships which I terribly regret now.

So how did I get the closure I wanted? I asked for it. Some four or five years after he got himself a girlfriend, we met up for dinner. And I asked all the questions I wanted to ask and got the answers I had to hear. And there you go, I was finally over him. More recently, I have had the same experience. Even if it was clear for a long time that me and this ex were never ever gonna be together, I was not able to move on. Not necessarily because I still wanted to be with him, I just really needed him to apologize, to tell me his reasons, to give answers that I think I deserve. And there you go, I am finally ok and we can finally be truly friends.

But this does not happen often. People leave without so much as a good bye. At eto ako… basang-basa sa ulan, walang masisilungan, walang malalapitan. Wait… well, it seems a bit that way. When somebody chooses somebody else or leaves me, or just cuts off ties for whatever reason, I seem like a lost child. Like I don’t know what to do and where to go. Iniwan sa ere. Ain’t such a great feeling. And FML! It happens to me all the time.

Piolo (and I) deserve an explanation.
Piolo (and I) deserve an explanation.

Eto na naman ako… paulit-ulit na lang. Sabi nga sa kanta nila Piolo at Sarah G (totally different movie, BTW), “Paano ba ang magmahal? Palagi bang nasasaktan? Umiiyak na lang palagi, Gusto ko nang lumisan.” Sakit beh. Minsan (and most recently), di pa nga ako nagmahal, like pa nga lang… thumbs up pa nga lang, di pa napusuan, nasaktan na. OUCH! Sakit, beh.

Once again, I am like a lost child. Pero eto ang maganda, with the help of my friends, nagka-epiphany ako. YES! After 34 years of existence and 21 years of liking, loving, investing emotions, and ending up heartbroken and lost, ETO NA BEH! Natuto rin ang puso kong tanga.
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The One Where I Ask The One You Love or… Podcast

The Feb-ibig Love and Hugot podcast series continues with this!

This episode is inspired by Jexx Hinggo‘s snap and FB post: “The one who loves you or the one you love?”

In the podcast, I share my friends and followers’ answers and I share my own hugot experience, as well. Do listen. But don’t judge. Haha!
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The One About Lies Our Exes Told Us Podcast

OLAAA! Happy Feb-ibig, everybody!

All podcasts from now to February 14 will be all about love, relationships, break ups, bitternesseses, and hugotses. So whether you’re taken or single, there’s something for you.

The first installment for Feb-ibig 2016 is from a post I saw on Facebook. The post asks: “Name a lie your ex told.” Let the hugotses pour out. Do comment and share your answers and questions. And do suggest a topi for future Love and Hugot podcasts.

And oh, please do visit our Valentine’s Bake Sale for a Cause entitled “LOVE and HUGOT: Desserts will never break your heart.” More details on this soon. Meantime, like our event page at this LINK.

Ria Jose 2014

31 and Single

Nobody really asked for this topic but I’m a bit intoxicated and I can’t sleep so what the hell, right? After all, love and relationships are the easiest and hardest things to talk about. Easy because we can all relate to it somehow. Or at least, the lack of it. And hard because it all really doesn’t make sense.

So here I am. 31 and single. One of things I often get asked (luckily, not so much by my relatives) is why I’m single. The answer? I don’t know. I’d like to think there’s really nothing wrong with me. So let’s examine my past relationships, instead.

My first boyfriend (who was not my first love, by the way) was one huge mistake. I’d rather not talk about the guy since we’re friends but let’s just say I went into the relationship just because. It was a long distance relationship and I felt like it was really not a big investment. While I did mourn the breaking up part, the relationship and the break up didn’t really take much of my time or emotions. Our usual nights would go like this…

BF: What you doing?
Ria: Playing DotA. DND.

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Photography by Eight Espino, Hair and Make Up by Envy Me Salon

My 29th Year Part Deux

Photography by Eight Espino, Hair and Make Up by Envy Me Salon
The Diyosa Lives

Despite the illness, the challenges of my house arrest, and the extra safety and health precautions I have to take, I am very grateful to be alive. There was a change in me. and people noticed. I gained a ton of weight, around 20 lbs. And then there was less drinking, less night outs, less stress, and less work.

While I was sick, I had to skip a lot of events and was given less workload. While resting, I pondered on a lot of things like love and relationships, forgiveness, letting go and moving on, and many other things about life and dealing with its challenges. This was when I accepted that I couldn’t control a lot of things in my life and I accepted it, not quite wholeheartedly, but there was acceptance.

I realized that there was really nothing else I’d like to do more than to write. And I told myself I was going to be ok as long as I can write and share my crazy thoughts to the world.

Filipino A list bloggers
Diyosa and the A listers

I was allowed to go to Metro Manila with the Avatar Media Team for WordCamp Philippines 2010. I delivered the opening remarks to the event and was very happy with how the event happened. While I was there, I also got to enjoy the company of my old and new blogger friends. It was a very refreshing and enjoyable, albeit a bit stressful, trip.

In October 2010, my cousin finally married his girlfriend of almost 13 years. Amaaaazing!

Best Food and Beverage Blog for Mindanao 2010

And later that month, I got happy news as well. After around 6 years of blogging and countless nominations, I finally won my first my Philippine Blog Awards trophy. I got the trophy for Best Food and Beverage Blog for Mindanao.

In November, I went to General Santos for a relaxing vacation. And I was well taken care of by my good friends Orman, Avel, and Donna, as well as my other blogger friends in Gen San.

Visayas Blogging Summit 2010
With Other Speakers at the Visayas Blogging Summit 2010

I also traveled to Iloilo to participate in the Visayas Blogging Summit 2010. I delivered a talk on the Role of Bloggers as New Media. I’d like to think it was a good talk since I got a lot of positive responses even after the talk.

In December, I delivered the State of the Philippine Blogosphere to open the first BlogFest Soccsksargen in General Santos City. On the same event, I was asked to deliver an acceptance speech for my Top 10 Emerging Influential Award and my PBA Mindanao 2010 Award. It was a very humbling experience which made me cry. It had been a very challenging year and it was great to finally get an award after 6 years of earnest blogging.

Winston Almendras accepting the award for RiaJose.com
Winston Almendras accepting the award for RiaJose.com

And the awards didn’t stop there. I got another award from the PBA for the Top Three Video Posts and Podcasts for 2010. My friend Winston received the award for me, and I only recently got the trophy. The award is for my podcast on Beings Friends with the Ex.

I had the privilege of judging the entries to the 6th Mindanao Filmfest along with NCCA’s Teddy Co and filmmaker/writer/music enthusiast/photographer Rudolph Alama. It was a very challenging experience but also a memorable one because I was able to experience first hand the talents of local fimmakers.

I got to spend Christmas with my relatives, and it was extra special because I got the chance to re-connect with a cousin I haven’t seen in quite a long time. And we even went out of town and cooked, drank, and player board games like we used to when we were younger.

New Year's Eve with the Joses

New Year’s Eve was spent with my paternal relatives which I haven’t done in a while. Everybody went home before 12 midnight because Daddy’s has a “palihi” belief thing. He believes that what you do when the stroke of midnight strikes on New Year would be what you will be doing the rest of the year. LOL!

On New Year’s Day, I prepared and cooked grilled liempo and puttanesca for some Davao and Gen San blogger friends. It was a fun bonding moment for all. Happy times! 🙂

Life became more hectic as 2011 rolled by.

I watched my cousin Mark and his band Baby Boomers go through the arduous process of auditioning for Pilipinas Got Talent 2. They got 3 yeses but somehow they didn’t make it to Manila.

I also got to speak to more than 500 Grade 6 students of Ateneo de Davao during their IT Day. I talked about being responsible on the web, specifically how to use social networking accounts properly and effectively. It was one of my most scary speaking experiences since I could not remember or think of ways to relate to 12 year olds. But apparently, I was an effective speaker according to the teachers and the kids themselves.

We <3 Crepelato Billboard
Lookie!

2011 was also memorable because I finally got to fulfill one of my dreams, to be in a billboard. HAHAHAHAHA! It was a proud moment for me to be invited as a blogger to endorse a product and be on its billboard. It’s not my only endorsement deal but it is the most publicized one. BONGGA! Many thanks to Crepelato for the experience and to Hairs and Nails Salon for making sure I look good in the bilboard!!!

In January, I travelled briefly to Gen San to attend the grand birthday celebration of Avel. It was a short but enjoyable trip. I travelled to Gen San again in February to judge the Lakan at Lakambini ng Gen San 2011 Pageant. I also joined the SEx Tour 2 or the Soccsksargen Experience Tour Part 2 where I got to go around Region XI while bonding with bloggers from all over the Philippines.

Busy, busy with JCI Davaoeña Daba Daba

I thought I needed change and a new challenge in 2011, I asked my cousin to recruit me to JCI. Coincidentally, a friend whom I bumped into during a party, invited me to join JCI Davaoeña Daba Daba. So I joined the organization in February and got inducted in March. It has been a flurry of activities, events, and projects since then.

The year has always been very kind to me as professional opportunities came knocking. And some opportunities continue on to knock on my door and there are some I pursue like crazy.

As 2010 came to a close, I wrote a letter to my future boyfriend. And when 2011 came, I wrote a letter to my ex.

While I celebrate the New Year, I consider my birthday as the day I begin making resolutions as it is the start of a new year in my life. And as it approached, a lot of great things happened to my career and to my personal life.

Two days before my birthday, I met somebody special. More about that soon. 😉

Happy 29th Birthday!

I celebrated my birthday multiple times this year. With the people in my organization. With my relatives. With my friends. With the special children of the DS Foundation. And of course, with the special person I met.

This post is around 3 months delayed and I even considered not posting this at all. I never really got the time, energy, or inspiration to finish writing about the second half of my 29th year. But here it is… a summary of how the past year was and how great my life is as I live through my 30th year.

Yes, I’m going to be 30 on April 28, 2012. Nine months left and I know it’s gonna be awesome thanks to all the wonderful people around me!

LIVE. LOVE. LEARN. <3 Part 1 posted more than 2 months ago