"The greatest thing you'll ever learn is just to love, and be loved in return." -Moulin Rouge One of my favorite movies is Moulin Rouge. Partly because of the line above. Yes, to love and be loved is the greatest thing one can experience. It is hard to love. It is a daunting thing to accept, understand, nurture, to love a person. It is difficult to choose to be with another person, to make that life a part of who you are, even if you don't have to. Much harder, I think, is to be loved in return. We choose to love. That choice is in our hands. But to be loved in return, that is not something we choose. It it something that the other person chooses for us. To be loved in return is one of the best things one can experience. But no matter how hard you love, how badly you want it to happen, how much you work for it, being loved in return... Is not something you can easily get. That is exactly why it is such a great thing, the best thing to love and be loved in return. Being in the business of…
Poker Face
A few days after comparing my love/relationship skills to how I play poker, I saw this music video... How timely! Here's the lyrics to Radio Gaga's Poker Face: POKER FACE Radio Gaga Mum mum mum mah Mum mum mum mah I wanna hold em' like they do in Texas Plays Fold em' let em' hit me raise it baby stay with me (I love it) Luck and intuition play the cards with Spades to start And after he's been hooked I'll play the one that's on his heart Oh, oh, oh, oh, ohhhh, ohh-oh-e-ohh-oh-oh I'll get him hot, show him what I've got Oh, oh, oh, oh, ohhhh, ohh-oh-e-ohh-oh-oh, I'll get him hot, show him what I've got Can't read my, Can't read my No he can't read my poker face (she’s got to love nobody) Can't read my Can't read my No he can't read my poker face (she’s got to love nobody) P-p-p-poker face, p-p-poker face (Mum mum mum mah) P-p-p-poker face, p-p-poker face (Mum mum mum mah) I wanna roll with him a hard pair we will be A little gambling is fun when you're with me I love it) Russian Roulette is not the same without…
Tuesday Morning Musings
It's one of those moments when I feel like I have to blog. There's a big part of me that's happy with the way things are. Work is fulfilling, business is doing well, I have friends, and men... Well, they're raining around me. Kinda. But there's also a part of me, discontent with my life. Like there's something more out there. The feeling of being un-challenged and bored is unsettling. I know I should want and aim for more, for better. Just because I practically have everything I need, I should be happy. Thankful, yes. Content and complacent, no. I know I can do and have better.
For Mommy
A few weeks ago, we celebrated the 60th birthday of my Mommy. She's not my biological mother, but she was the one who brought me up. I got so choked up while my cousins and I were singing her favorite song for her, and when I made the AVP, I was also almost in tears. Here's one of the most gracious ladies I know, Teresita Jose-Bonguyan, my Mommy. It is said that parents should give two things to their children: roots and wings. And that's exactly what she gave me. I am where I am today because of her, and how she brought me up, with the same love and care for her 4 biological children. I can reach whatever I wanna reach because she has taught me that I can be who I want to be. Her words pounded on us for years that "You are the product of the choices that you make," still hold true today. Everyday, I ponder on my life, and her words are no less true. She has nurtured me to be who I want to be, with the freedom to choose and do as I want, but always with the constant reminder that…
This is How I Love
Alternate Title: The Way I Play DotA and Poker is Also The Way I Love Subtitle: P*TANG INA! SATC and Grey's Anatomy Marathons are EEEVIL! I'm a pretty aggressive person who does and say things when and how I want to do and say it. I curse more than the average person, and I go out and do things that my relatives aren't proud of. In fact, they cringe at most of the things I do. One recent conversation with my relatives pointed to me as having inherited most, if not all, of the bad habits of my aunts and uncle: academic underachievement, drinking, gambling, and more. I'm a bad girl, I know. But when it comes to love, I am no bad girl and no aggressor. I love the way I play DotA. As a DotA player, I play support most of the time. I take care of my teammates and make sure they look and perform well. And by golly, I am the same way in most relationships. I'm a nurturer. I take care of people. (SHUDDAP!) I make sure they eat on time, do things the right way, and do the things they have to accomplish. I…