Had a cathartic talk with a dear friend today. It made me realize that I live a pretty sad life with too many struggles going on right now. I am actually struggling not to fall into depression again. But I have somehow managed to stay happy, smile, and somehow not cry myself to sleep every night. Maybe I have finally grown up, learned how to roll with the punches, let go of the pain, and look at the happy and funny side of life. Sometimes, I do get to hear my thoughts and feel the pain in my heart, I wonder and think of the what ifs, and the maybes. But I always sleep and wake up sane and without much thoughts of sadness and anger. As my friend affirmed, happiness is a state of mind. And right now, despite the pains and struggles, the haters and the critics, I choose to smile, to be happy, to keep myself sane. I look at my life, my work, the people I work with and have fun with, and see that somehow, I have helped them smile too. And right now, that is more than enough to keep me going. ;)
October 2008 Hair Cut
A few weeks ago, my cousin Gwing and I had the idea to have our photos taken before and after we have our haircut at David's Salon. We are members of the Portraits Studio so we can have as many free photo shoots in one year. And we are getting bored of having our photos taken for no reason. Thus, the before and after haircut shoot idea. Here's a photo of me before my hair cut: And here's the after photo: My "new" hair cut isn't really new since I've had a similar one last December. It's a shorter (below the shoulder) layered cut with side bangs. Maybe next time, I should try out a more radical change. And here's a photo of me and Gwing, with similar hair styles: We didn't plan to have similar hair styles, we weren't even seated near each other, but we somehow both ended up with similar styles. Thanks to the nice people at David's Salon and at Portraits Studio! :)
From Ninang Ria To Cai
Dear Baby Cai, You're more than a month old now. Last Saturday, I, along with your Tita Ai, and your Titos Jug, Wiwi, Subang, Roger, Harold, and Fred became your godparent. To others, we may seem as mere young friends of your parents, their DotA, drinking, and poker buddies. But to me, and to them, I hope, we are now more than just friends. As your godparent, I am now part of who you are and who you become. You can trust that no matter how the tides turn, I will be there for you and your parents, Mayang and Cocoy. I may not always be your perfect role model, but I wish that you learn not just from my successes and triumphs, but my faults and mistakes, as well. Know that I will be there to guide you, to be your friend, to be with you as you make this treacherous journey through life. I may not always have gifts for you, but I will be there for you. Even before you were born, I have loved you and cared for you as an important child in my life. Be obedient, but not submissive. Follow your heart, but always…
Wanted: BOYFRIEND Part 2
Last year, out of boredom and a bit of desperation, I launched a Wanted: Boyfriend campaign which was a super FAIL. Anyhow... This year, I'm launching a similar campaign for my friend Junelle... Junelle is my age, 26 years old and a single mom of two. She is an only child who now works as the manager of a small team of web developers, graphic artists, web masters, and SEO practitioners. She is also a blogger, and online almost 24 hours a day. Junelle is looking for a fair-skinned guy who is at least 5'7 tall, FAT (yeahaaa!), and older than her (>27) who has a pleasing personality and is a loving boyfriend, and NOT A PLAYBOY! She also wants a guy who is already a professional. So if you are the guy Junelle is looking for, or you know somebody who will fit the bill, please reply in this blog entry, or write a blog entry about you (or whoever the potential bf is) and link back to this entry. WHAT ARE YOU WAITING FOR?! Let's moves those asses and find Junelle a boyfriend.
Never Been This Un-Emo
Yes, yes, yes... life has been good lately. Despite the unexpected kinks, and several minor problems I am facing (or choosing to ignore) right now, I have never been this un-emo. This blog, as with most of my other personal blogs, started out of angst and thrived on my many whines, rants, and anger towards people and my life. But lookie... I am smiling right now. I don't have a family (not in the way many people have), and I don't even have a boyfriend. But am I am moving on with a great big smile on my face. As I have shown in my Nokia video (of FAIL coz it was so shaky people got dizzy every time they'd watch it), I have so many things going on in my life right now, that I do not have much time to be angry or sad anymore. Which is also prolly why I don't have much reason to blog here anymore. Life is still full of sorrow and pains and yes, HATRED! But what the hell, I got my work, I got my friends, I got my relatives, I have my life to live. So screw the haters and flamers…
My PBA 2008 Thank You Speech
Last year, I was nominated for several categories, but wasn't even a finalist in any. I told myself, I'd be a finalist this year. And quickly forgot about that goal. But lo and behold, this year, three of my blogs were finalists for various categories. One blog which I am part owner of was also a finalist, and was, in fact, up against my other blog. Six of my posts were also finalists. I submitted entries for two sponsor awards. That give me around 12 chances to win. But I didn't win. NADA! Nonetheless, I would like to thank the following people: my cousins Kuya Andrew who helped me get started in blogging, and who continues to help me with the technical stuff, and Gwing who has taken over one of my blogs; Ate Aileen who inspires me to be a better blogger and person; Tita Janette who gave me the chance to be an iBlog speaker; MLQ3 and the Filipino Voices bloggers who inspire me to be a more responsible and conscientious political blogger Avatar Media colleagues Migs, Winston, and Blogie; all my blog readers, friends, mga ka-link exchange, fans, followers, flamers, and HATERS who give me a good…