Dear Love,

It’s me again. I just wanted to write today.

I have been meaning to do something. I never thought I would seriously consider it. I never did. You know me. I know I will not be good at it or the best at it, I do not even try. But this time… I want to do it. Like think about it everyday kind of want.

I do not have a good enough reason other than the thought would not leave my mind. And though it scares me, it excites me and makes me think I should have tried it a long time ago.

Will you jump in with me? I need you there. Will you smile and be proud of me?

Are you going to tell me I did well even if I end up being mediocre?

As I write this, I am listening to songs that remind me of days when I was a little bit more confident. When I thought I was the best and infallible. When I did not have plans but it did not matter because I was smart and good at almost everything.

The songs also remind me of the days that inspire me to do what I am about to do.

I am scared. Be scared with me.

Then, tell me if I did well. Or if there are things I have to improve. Or if I should just quit right after this first one. And move on to the next adventure.

Jump in with me. I need you there with me. Hold my hand. That always gives me comfort.

Hindi pa man… wala pa man… kahit pa di kita tanungin, alam kong nandyan ka. Salamat.

Love,

R