It's so cliche to say that I've been on a rollercoaster of emotions. But that's exactly how it's been these past few days. And sad to say, I've been paralyzed to a certain extent. Proof of this is my inability to blog about my life. Sure it's been easy to blog about the stand-off, Pinoy Big Brother, shopping, my work, and those other things. But when it comes to my life, what I've been up to, what I've been feeling, the daunting challenges I face, the stupid mistakes I've made... it's just been a struggle. One moment I'm happy... or at least trying pretending to be happy, the next I'm simply miserable. I know it's my fault, and I have nobody else to blame. Well, I could blame a lot of other people, but I don't want to. It's hard accepting my mistakes. And even harder owning up to it, and correcting it. It's hard to move on, and move forward. It's difficult to wake up everyday, knowing nothing is better and it won't be for a long time. It's hard to look forward to the holidays when you know it's not going to be an easy or happy one.…
Category: life
So Many Things….
...I wish I could say, blog, talk about. But I can't, wouldn't, shouldn't. I can only hope the time will come for everything to fall into place and I can finally say what I have to say. For now, this is it...
I Wanna Blog…
...but there's nothing to blog about. It's a sad day for Queen Ria... minsan lang to. :(
Maria "Ria" A. Jose WON!
I joined the Filipina Writing Project and won. Well, I didn't really win for my blogging/writing skills. But I got a Wordpress Shirt thanks to Noemi! More importantly, the entire project was a big success. Thanks to all the organizers, sponsors, participants, and other people who supported the project! Maria "Ria" A. Jose IS A PROUD FILIPINA!
Being Emo
...SUCKS BIG TIME!!! HAHA! While it's kinda cathartic and helpful to articulate my sad feelings via my blog... I don't like it. Haven't you noticed that ost of my emo posts are usually un-ti-tled? Probably coz I'm not thinking right when I'm emo. Unlike some people who think and write well and clearly when they are feeling emo... I apparently do not. So I'll try to stay as much as possible from this "Write Post" page when I feel emo, unless I feel like really writing something profound or heartwarming... or at least something cohesive enough that I can put a title to.