So it probably won't be the best day of my life ever for a long time. But for now... at this moment... April 28, 2008, was quite awesome. Fakest Birthday Smile Ever! Kuya Andrew's camera went crazy and the photo of my fake birthday smile at Cafe Breton in Podium is now somewhere in oblivion land, but that "surprise" was a crazy one. I cried real tears of anger and sadness. Kawawa naman yung wait staff ng Cafe Breton, nadamay sa bad mood ko. Thanks anyway to the attempt by Kuya, Migs, and Winston to make up for their kakulitan. Lesson: Great food can't cure pain, hurt, sadness, and loneliness, even if it's for free. Manila Ocean Park Had fantastic time with Ate Aileen, Kuya Jay, Miguel Apolo, Kuya Andrew, Migs, Blogie, and Winston at the Manila Ocean Park. They even gave me flowers. Nice! :) Lesson: Keeping in touch with nature is therapeutic. Grand Birthday Bash at Serendra and Bonifacio High Street for Bloggers sponsored by Spot NAKS! I'm like so big time! Kidding! Had a fun but stressful time at this food tour because there was just so much to be taken in a little span of time.…
Category: family
Gwing's Pasalubong
Yesterday, while I was frolicking through the Butterfly House, a friend sent me an SMS telling me that Gwing wants me to go online so we could chat. But I couldn't... friend then sent me this message: "I know you're going to like my pasalubong." -Gwing Ano kaya yun? Hmmm... Today, Gwing and I got to chat... and her only clue was "It might have been featured on ShopChicks." HUWHAT?! We have hundreds of posts there... I know because I was the blog's main blogger and now the editor. :( We have posts on clothes, make-ups, shoes, bags, accessories, cute things, and even home stuff. ANO DUN?! ANOOO?!
A Simple Request
I do not ask for acceptance or understanding. I only ask for an open mind. I know it's hard to comprehend what we have, difficult to fathom why I'm in this relationship. I do not have the answers, I do have explanations but this I know, he makes me happy. He understands me, accepts me and all my faults, gives me something I have not felt or even knew existed. He made me smile and laugh again. Yes, our relationship is not perfect. It never will be. It is not ideal. It is something, even I had hard time accepting. But it is real. I might be wrong. It may not last for a long time. I know that. I am prepared for that. But right now, it is what I choose. And I know you are not ready to understand and accept. All I ask for is that you be open-minded to the possibility that I might be right in choosing him, in sticking to this thing we have. I can take the jokes and the criticisms. But I need for you to at least show me that there is room for acceptance that I might be right. I…
Being Zen
Ok so, I am not really Zen and not likely to be in that state of peace and calm. Nonetheless... I had dinner with my relatives because today was Tito Jing's birthday. As it was a family affair, the people I loathed most were there. GRAWRRR! And one of them was especially annoying today. Seeing childish person acting like she has done nothing wrong towards me was damn irritating. Every time I see her and her minions laughing and smiling, I feel not just pain but great anger. Yes, anger. I was going to write a very long angry angsty post again. But why waste more words, energy, and bandwidth on useless crap shit load of people? Well, I know I just did a bit of that and it feels better to unload a bit. HAHA! Anyway, I don't feel much better now. I'm struggling to feel better. Maybe, as Kuya advised, I should really learn how to be apathetic and numb. Hmmm... I am definitely not the Zen type of person. And right now, I am so not in the mood to be the bigger, better person. But hey, I'm doing effin fine without them and their stupid rules…
Happy
Despite problems, people who try to bring me down, bouts of depression (not clinical), illnesses and stress, I am happy. Things are starting to fall into place. Loose ends are being tied up. Best of all, I am moving on. Every now and then. I can still feel the pain, I still get angry, and my bitterness remain... but I am able to live with it, determined to be better, be content, be HAPPY. Some things might not change, some people might never change. Some situations and issues will never be resolved. They never will, and I won't even expect them to. There is a certain peace achieved when one learns to just accept things as they are, no matter how wrong or unfair they are. One can be happy despite life and its pitfalls. All it takes is courage. Courage to decide to be happy, to choose to move on. It takes courage because not everybody can easily do it. I, for one, took a lot of time and encouragement from other people so that I could accept the way things are and move on. It's hard to be a good person, harder to be the better and bigger…
Childish
Doing something for no good, valid, or legal reason is just plain stupid. Doing it to spite or blackmail somebody is childish. There are no reasons, no excuses to explain what you did and continue on doing. Yes, I am angry. There are no words. And I used to think I was the immature one, and only one at fault for this mess. Know they know.