This is one of my favorite poems. Yes, it's a poem about heartbreak and letting go but it's also a poem about love and how it can move people. Tonight I can write the saddest lines Tonight I can write the saddest lines. Write, for example,'The night is shattered and the blue stars shiver in the distance.' The night wind revolves in the sky and sings. Tonight I can write the saddest lines. I loved her, and sometimes she loved me too. Through nights like this one I held her in my arms I kissed her again and again under the endless sky. She loved me sometimes, and I loved her too. How could one not have loved her great still eyes. Tonight I can write the saddest lines. To think that I do not have her. To feel that I have lost her. To hear the immense night, still more immense without her. And the verse falls to the soul like dew to the pasture. What does it matter that my love could not keep her. The night is shattered and she is not with me. This is all. In the distance someone is singing. In the distance. My…
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To The Guy Who Got Me So Confused
Dear You, You know who you are but I'm quite sure you don't read my blog so whatever. ;) First off, wag mo masyadong i-feel ang moment, ok? Haha! I'd like you to know I'm so frustrated by the entire situation but I'm thankful you finally had the guts to be honest. When you first approached me, it was obvious you liked me. You never denied it. I wasn't really into you but you seemed like you were a nice guy. And even my guy friends told me you seemed sincere. I told you I wasn't ready for a commitment or anything serious. And I meant it. I don't regret telling you that. And yet you tried to win me over. A for effort! Actually, A plus kung tutuusin. Bilib pati mga tao sa paligid ko. Wala pang lalakeng nag-effort ng ganun ka bongga. You didn't do anything grand or extra special but you were there. A constant presence (so to speak) in my life. Just when I was about to change my mind and let you into my life, the tides changed. The calls became fewer and the conversations started getting colder. You admit that your ex, the one…
Jar of Hearts
It's been several months and yet this song still comes to mind every now and then. The song is "Jar of Hearts" by Christina Perri. It talks about a former lover who goes around making girls fall in love with him only to break the girls' hearts. In the song, the guy is looking for the girl again but the girl won't have him back because she knows he'll only hurt her again. Yeah, yeah, yeah... I still love the guy. And though he does not want me back, I feel that this song speaks to me strongly right now. Not quite that bitter but I'm still a bit angry. So this is my song right now. Especially this line... "Who do you think you are? Runnin' 'round leaving scars Collecting your jar of hearts And tearing love apart" Sad, noh? Really sad. The song is very melancholic. And I've been listening to it a lot lately. Haaay... Hope to get over this phase soon.
Day 50
...and I'm still counting. I just finished watching "The Love Affair," and I am now in the middle of "First Love (A Crazy Thing Called Love)." These films are two of my most favorite romance films. I have been watching a lot of those lately because for 50 days, I have been trying to do everything there is to do to try to get over a break up. I have tried staying in for two days. I have tried going out and staying up late. I have tried watching cheesy Tagalog films. I have tried binge-ing and I have tried dieting. I have cried myself to sleep. I have tried drowning myself in work. I have posted emo messages and status updates. I have become addicted to Facebook games which I was so against before. Yes, I have tried almost everything there is to do when one is depressed or heartbroken. Kulang na lang mag-droga ako. Last weekend, we saw each other and it was then that I realized he was right. That we are not for each other. That while there is nothing fundamentally wrong with each one of us, it could have never worked out. I could have…
I Try
I used to really love Macy Gray's I Try, though I couldn't relate to what the song is saying. But now I do and I love the song more than ever. The song captures so perfectly how I have been living my life the past few months. It's about trying to move on and forget a past love. Sing it with me all yeah broken-hearted friends... "I try to say goodbye and I choke, Try to walk away and I stumble." My absolute favorite is the part that goes: I may appear to be free But I'm just a prisoner of your love And I may seem all right and smile when you leave But my smiles are just a front Just a front, hey I play it off, but I'm dreaming of you And I'll try to keep my cool, but I'm feenin' I try to say goodbye and I choke Try to walk away and I stumble Though I try to hide it, it's clear My world crumbles when you are not here Goodbye and I choke I try to walk away and I stumble Though I try to hide it, it's clear My world crumbles when you…
Healing a Broken Heart
*I know my friends don't like it when I'm emo but I wouldn't be Ria if I weren't emo. And I'd rather write about these things than hibernate, be suicidal, get catty, or have GERD or other stress-induced illness. Sorry friends.* One day the body asked the heart, When I’m hurt the doctor heals it. But if you’re hurt, who will heal you? Then the heart said, I have to heal by myself. Is it because of that whenever someone is hurt, they have their own special way of healing it? Drinking, singing, releasing anger, laughing, crying, going to trips with friends and talking to them, and running in the marathon... or the worst thing is just ignoring that pain. My way of healing is by making cake and cookies in the morning like right now. ...and I was healed from the smell of the baked cake. Can there be another treatment as sweet as this one? -Kim Sam Soon, My Name is Kim Sam Soon Episode 4 How does one heal a broken heart, exactly? I do not know. Once upon a time, I played DotA for 12 hours straight just so I could forget, go home, and go…