Most of my life, I have been told to act a certain way, do certain things, be someplace I am not sure I want to be in. But I am finally where I want to be, writing. Writing has always been my passion. True, I am a science geek and I love Math more than the average person, but it has always been writing that I have been passionate about. It is the thing that I have always wanted to do. As a kid, I realized that writing my thoughts can affect people, can change things. Yes, I had a messianic complex thing going on. Feeling ko magbabago ang world pag naging manunulat ako. (I felt like the world was gonna change if I become a writer.) But being who I was and wanting to please, I took a different path, one that was well within my skills and capabilities, but obviously one that I wasn't really very much passionate about. But things happened. A complex web of stories of because of this and because of that, from being a webmaster wannabe to professional blogger to gamer to poker enthusiast. All these things contributed to my finally being a writer,…
Month: May 2009
Miss Statement
Dahil ako na... ang mahilig mag-emote and mag-drama with my boys, boylets, exes, and other eklavu. At dahil gusto kong talbugan sina Catherine, Scarlet, Isadora, at ang bonggang-bonggang sina Madam Claudia Buenavista at Amor Powers, here are some of the lines I have uttered IN REAL LIFE in the recent past... Boy: I'm sorry, I can't take this kind of drama. Ria: I hope you won't regret letting me go. Ria: What do you want? Do you want me turn back time so you'd meet me first? Because I would if I could. Boy: I'm really sorry. Ria: Madali lang naman akong kausap. You don't want me enough? I'll move on the next guy. Boy: Good night! Ria: Is it presumptuous to think you like me? Coz I know you do. Boy:... Boy: I'm turned off by aggressive girls. Ria: Sorry naman. Pinanganak akong ganito. I can't let things happen to me, I make them happen. Ria: I know you like me. Break up with your girlfriend and I'll instantly be your girlfriend. Boy: I'm sorry I can't let her go. Ria: You want to continue dating her? Ok. You can have her, but I'll also have my other boys.…
Ria and Kevin Part 1
Kevin is a Korean guy who regularly plays at the poker room. One night... Kevin: Introduce me to Filipina girlfriend. Ria: If introduce to Filipina girlfriend, you introduce me to Korean boyfriend? Kevin: YES! Ria introduces Kevin to all the single dealers, chip runners, and receptionists in the room. Ria: Who you like? Kevin: Nobody. Everybody pangit! Ikaw PANGIT! (annoyed) RAWRRR!
Moving Forward
A lot has been said and a lot has happened since. This is really it, yes? We're moving on. And I'm taking it easy. There will be better days than today, that I am quite sure. I'm finding it hard to smile and laugh and be ok. But I will be happy. I have done everything possible to make it work. And that is enough to make me happy. I will be happy. (I'll keep saying that til it becomes true. LOL!) At the very least, I have learned a lot from this. For one, I know I can love... sincerely. It's the being loved in return I have to learn or earn. There is still a part of me that's insecure with who I am, what my value is, and what I deserve. That I am learning. As we went through the motions of what happened, I kept questioning, as I still do, if I deserve to be happy or to be sad. Do I deserve to be hurt? Am I good enough? Am I enough? But I realize, I didn't work hard to be where I am, to be who I am, to be this goddamn hot and…
From 38 to 29
This is another vanity post. KTHNXBAI! People have been giving me great comments on my new look. My new haircut and recent hospitalization plus some new items in my wardrobe has made more people notice how much weight I have lost. People (mga bolero) have been telling me I look younger even if I just celebrated my birthday. My cousin, my Ninang, and my new Diyosa body at a Davao dorm I am very much basking in the glow of these comments as I have been overweight since I was nine years old. Before that I was a skinny kid. Ever since I was in grade three, I have been mocked for being fat. The fact that I don't have a bubbly personality, and I am quite a competitive girl, didn't really earn me a lot of socialization points. In high school and college, although I have mellowed a bit, I didn't have much of a lovelife. I learned how to cook in college, and I my condo was surrounded by fastfood chains and restaurants which led me to gain so much weight that at my fattest I had a 38 (YUS! 38!) waistline, and weighed almost 150 lbs. The…
Summer 2009 Haircut
I have been wanting to have a haircut for a long time, and I finally did it yesterday. Instead of the trim I usually get, I decided to have it cut drastically shorter. And people are saying I made a good decision coz it makes me look younger. LOL! This is one of the last photos taken of me before my haircut: photo courtesy of Kuya Andrew and his brand new Lumix And here's the new me: Somebody told me I look ten years younger. Bolero! But I am loving my new hair. But today... not so MUCH! I realized why I hated having short hair... fly away hair. PFT! This will be harder to maintain than my long hair as I hate blowdrying my hair everyday. But I don't regret having the haircut. :) The guys at the poker club are saying I have a new hair coz I prolly have a new guy. Correction... I have a new hair coz I NEED a new guy. :P Haircut by Ms. Josie of David's Salon NCCC Mall of Davao branch. :)