By request from Mica Rodriguez, I made a podcast on Open Relationships. I also got some questions and subtopics from two Plurk threads that I started. I am by no means a relationship expert nor a graduate of any course that will make me a credible source of information or opinion on the matter. These are just my views and opinion based on my experiences and observations. You might find some value in it. Listen... Download this episode at this link. Helpful? Or not! Comment. Suggest. Share your opinions. Links: Wikipedia: Open Relationships Wikipedia: Open Source Plurk Threads: Link 1, Link 2 This is another test podcast. Humor me while I prepare for better podcasts. If you have any topic suggestions, comments, and opinions, please share them on the comments box.
Tag: ex-boyfriend
A Close Encounter with the Ex
Last Sunday, the most important tournament in my poker life was going to take place. Imagine working hard for and anticipating a tournament for three months. It was supposed to be intense and stressful. Surprisingly, I was calm and relaxed. Until... I saw my ex walk in. GAAAAH! Let's call him ex-R. We have had an agreement that he would try to inform me everytime he would go someplace I would probably be in and I would do the same. Needless to say, his early evening visit to the poker club came without a warning. He only visited the poker club on early evenings when we dated. More surprisingly, his gf was not with him. GAAAAH! WHY?! WHY?! WHY?! So I became distracted and as poker players would say, I was on tilt. We are friends, my ex and I. In fact, we would sometimes send SMS to each other to ask or consult about work-related stuff. But, I was caught off-guard. And yes, I was shocked by how much I was affected by his presence. You know what was even more disturbing? He was seated and played beside another guy I dated whom we shall refer to as ex-A.…
A Letter to My Ex
Dear You, There's so many things running through my mind right now. One of which that I'm trying so hard to suppress is how much I hate you and would very much like to inflict pain on you. Kidding... sorta. We both know that I left the relationship because I couldn't give you something you needed for our relationship to work. Truth is, I have already given so much to you and to our relationship, that I felt like I was losing myself. But when you asked I change my belief to accommodate yours, I realized, there was really nothing there left in me that is truly me and mine. Through our almost seven months together, I have changed so much. It was probably out of the desperation, the need to be with somebody, to be loved, and to be part of something. At that point, I didn't know who I was anymore. I wasn't willing to change any more than I already had. So I made the choice to let go. But we didn't really let go, did we? We broke up, but we were there for each other. Or at least I was there for you. Through all…
I Miss Him… Or It
It's been months... almost two months. We've been friends since then. But I miss him. Or maybe I miss what we had... having that someone who is always there. I know we were never physically with each other, but there was something across the miles through messages, chats, calls, and even the moments we were just thinking of each other that was comforting. And it's not just him making lambing or trying to make pa-cute. I miss the thought of being with someone, taking care of someone, of the idea that I matter to someone, that somebody listens and understands what I say and do, and even those I don't say and do. Maybe I am in love with love, maybe I just need that somebody to be there with me, maybe... It's all so confusing. There are times when I am happy, when I am at peace with what happened, fully accepting that what happened had to happen, that what we had was simply going nowhere. But then there are times, such as now, when I feel sad and lonely, when I reminisce and wish I could have it all again. I don't know what I really miss, need,…
Because I Still Care
I hope, sincerely, that you get well soon. I hope you get out of that hospital bed soon because I know you're bored. I hope you feel better soon because I hate receiving worried messages from Tita. I hope you take care of yourself better. Take vitamins. Sleep. Lessen drinking and smoking. And for heaven's sake... start eating like a guy. I hope you do not get that sick again... EVER. I hope you feel better soon, so I'll also feel better.
Manila Day 3
I woke up at around 9:30 am, took a bath, ate breakfast, and prepared for a day of gallivanting around. At around 11 am, Kuya, Winston, and I met up with Juned. After a while, Ate Aileen also arrived. We went to Binondo. YEY! We ate at Estero where we had Yang Chow Fried Rice, Scallops with Mushrooms, Sweet and Sour Pork, and Oyster Cake. YUM YUM YUM! After lunch, we met up with Benj. We went on a search for Quickly. LOL! But failed miserably... we spent more time walking around more than anything else. Well, there were also lotsa camwhoring. After Binondo, they went to Intramuros while I hailed a cab to go to Taft. I visited Mineski Grounds. I was able to meet a lot of the DotA players I chat with or play with over G Arena. My ex was there and he was like... uhmmm.... hmmm.... ah, eh... he ignored me. LOL! I also met up with Davao player Yukz who is trying to move to Manila and needed professional and personal advice. Awww... bonding kami! The friendliest people there were Vini, Tony, Roro, Khen, and Papa Bong. :P By 6 pm, I left to…